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It was somewhere between one and two in the morning. It wasn’t great to tell the truth. Maybe just okay. Everything before it was wonderful. I mean he could kiss like no one else that I have kissed. Everything seemed okay till about eleven at night. It was a Friday night. Normally, yes teens go out on Friday nights. So that’s what I did. My best friend, Emily and I went to a party. It was like this big event for us ninth graders. Seeing as the person was in eleven grade. Usually freshmen were never invited to these things at all. But, seeing that Emily had some sort of connection to this guy made it easy for us to get into the party that was held at Matt’s house. He was some sort of big shot in our school, Matthew Connin. He is the star in football and basketball, ever since he was in freshmen grade. Well, Emily’s older brother Kevin was old time friends with Matt, So he brought us along just to see if we would like a party.

I was wearing something actually that I wouldn’t wear. Emily said it would make matt interested in me. Well I guess I would give that a shot. I mean he’s hot and older and the star football and basketball dude. I was wearing a little black dress with black sandals since I knew heals wouldn’t be good at a party. I had make up on but not too much since I didn’t want to overdo it on the makeup. I didn’t think a junior would really go for freshmen but hey you never know do you? We walked in to the door and her brother went his way and we just looked around for our friend, Tyler. He was actually a year older than us. Tyler Mcstream, He was known as the kid that could never really get anything at all, but was always seen with girls. He was sort of the next Matt, but only because he was that good in everything besides being a player, like Matt. But, What I found funny, was that Emily had fallen for the boy that could not get over the one girl he would never get, in his life. But Emily had some impressing to do on this boy. If she wanted a chance with the next big shot she would have to out do the most popular girl in the tenth grade. Paige Trilly. Her older brother Max Trilly was the big shot last time then Matt took over in that position. She was tall and skinny and blonde with big baby blue eyes. She didn’t even care for Tyler actually. They were friends but she wanted Matt. Which meant if I wanted Matt, I would have to try my hardest to get his attention?

I finally saw Tyler with of course Paige. But I could see her eyes were really on Matt. We walked up to Tyler . Emily tried to cover the big smile she had on her face but that was hard. As soon as we got to Tyler , Paige left. See Paige hated me and Emily and hated that Tyler hung out with us. Paige went right by Matt trying to get his attention but Matt’s eyes were not even there. His eyes? You would never ever believe this. But they were on me. Yeah I know a junior looking at a freshman. That was hard to believe. But it was true. He finished his conversation up with his friends, Ryan Weston and Connor Leither. He put his drink down and started to walk toward me and Emily. Bump Bump, Bump, and Bump. There it goes. My stupid heart thumping just because of a guy. As he came closer I didn’t know what he was going to say or what I was going to say back to him. He smiled and looked to Tyler and said “Hey stud. I’m seeing you got the two prettiest freshmen with you”. Tyler smiled and said “Yeah I guess so”. His eyes wandered to find Paige. Matt could tell. He looked at him and said “Dude, It’s not worth it. She’s not worth it at all. She’ll like you for a week then play you and then dump your butt”. Tyler looked at him and said “Well you’re encouraging today.” Matt looked at him and said “Telling you the truth man. She did it to Ryan like two weeks ago, just to get me jealous but I’m not like that”. Matt looked to me and smiled. He looked to Emily then Tyler. He sighed and said “Well Ladies. Can I have the pleasure of knowing the names?’ So I guess this is where I say my name to you. I wanted it to be another way really I did. But he asked and I reply. Emily looked to him and said “I’m Emily. Kevin’s my older brother”. He looked to her and said “Oh you’re the little sister he talks about”. Emily sighed and blushed a bit. I knew she hated that. I looked to him and said” I’m Alexis.” Matt looked to me and smiled. The music started to play. He looked to me and said “Alexis, Can I get you a drink”. It was random, I know but this gave me some time and Emily some time to talk to Tyler . I nodded and said “Sure”. He put his arm around my shoulder and started to walk towards the kitchen. He went to the table with the drinks and said “What do you want to drink”. I looked to him and said “um soda”. He grabbed a diet Pepsi and opened and handed me the soda. I smiled and said “thank you.” I took a sip and looked to him. He smiled at me and said “So how’s freshmen year going for you”. Seeing that it was only about two month’s in to the year I said “it’s going great”. Maybe that would change after a few more months. I had no clue. He nodded and said “I remember being a freshman. But then again everyone knew me by then. My older brother Nick was some big shot, I guess”. I nodded and thought of course someone had to be the bigger one than him. I couldn’t believe that anyone would do this. A party in their house, I don’t think I ever would do this. He looked to me and said “Yeah it’s not hard to think I had an older brother”. I smiled and said” I guess”. I took another sip of my soda. I took a look around the kitchen. It was nice in this house. I still didn’t get it. He looked to me and said” Not much of talkers are you”. I looked to him and shrugged and said” You’ll get used to me not talking then all of sudden I talk and talk”. He nodded and said “Okay we’ll how about you come up stairs with me. I have a new cd and I think you would like it”. I thought wait is this his house. I looked to him and said “Why not”. He smiled and put his hand around my shoulder again. The stairs were in the kitchen, odd place to be but I knew these were the back stairs to upstairs. We turned to the left and went upstairs again. I looked around and then saw a door. It had a sign saying Matt’s room and caution do not enter.

He opened the door to the room. There was a bed near a window and it looked like a king or queen. I wasn’t sure about bed sizes. Over near the other side was a couch then a desk with a cd player stereo. I guessed he would play it in that. He walked to the desk and popped the cd in and hit play. He turned it up loud. It was only about ten now. He looked around and said” You can sit on the couch”. I stood there for a minute or two then I walked over and sat down on the couch. He walked around the room circling and looking around. I didn’t know what he was doing. I finally got it after the sign that this was his house. I wondered now how Emily was doing without me. I wondered if she was a wreck yet. I heard a beep. I slid my phone out of my pocket that my dress had. It was tiny enough to fit in there. Thank god. I looked to see a text for Emily. I opened it up and it said “where the heck you at?” I texted back: IN HIS ROOM, Oh my god I can’t even breathe. Text back if you want.” I slid it back into the pocket. Matt was still walking in circles. He looked like he was thinking. I didn’t really know what to think. I heard a beep and slid my phone out and read the text. “Oh my god, deep breathes Lexi. Deep breathes. Tell me about it later. I’m with Ryan Weston. Gosh I never knew how hot he was. I think I’m finally over Tyler . Peace sistah tell me lata about every little thing.” I closed my phone and slid it back in to the pocket. I looked up to Matt and said” Neat room”. He looked to me and said “Oh thanks. It used to be my brothers.” He seemed to talk about his brother a lot. Something must have happened to him. I sighed and said “Oh, I really like it”. He nodded and sat down next to me. I looked to him and smiled. This wasn’t awkward at all. Nope, not even a little. I was a nervous wreck right now. All I wanted to do was go down stairs and run away from this. But I couldn’t. I looked to him and said” I really like the music”. He smiled and said “shhhh”. He leaned in and then he kissed me. Oh god I almost melted right there and then but, I couldn’t believe this. He just kissed me, a junior just kissed me. Oh my god, I think I was in shock because after a few minutes a remembered I was staring at him awkwardly. I didn’t know what to do, I mean, what would you do?. He backed up after like three seconds of kissing or so. I looked at him and smiled. He leaned in a little and I leaned in a little to and then we kissed, once again, but this time it wasn’t so awkward. It went from there now, which was always expected. We started to make out. It was great.  Well actually ,He was great, while I thought I was nothing compared to how good of a kisser he was, But he controlled it more than I did. Oh how I couldn’t even breathe. This was more than I ever imagined. Then he let go and we stopped kissing. He sighed and said “I think I went too far. I did it again. I went way too far”. I looked to him and said “shut up and kiss me”. He smiled and leaned in and started to kiss me. I couldn’t help it. I was so happy. I didn’t know what to do. I started to smile. Then I focused more on the making out now.

He backed off and said” You are really pretty ,you know that”. I blushed and said” well thanks. You’re not so bad yourself “. He smiled and said” well, thanks missy”. I looked to the clock almost eleven. This is where it starts. This is where I didn’t know what to do. Yes I could have stopped it to happening but I didn’t know how. He smiled and said” I’ll be right back. I have to go see how the party is”. This is when I felt kind of awkward but I nodded in agreeing. He stood up and walked out the door. I could hear him go down the stairs then his steps disappeared. I slid my phone out and texted Emily. “Oh my god we made out TWICE. He’s down stairs Emily”. She texted right back and said” get out of there. NOW. He’s not going back up. Someone one else is. A guy you don’t like at all. TRISTIAN GALDEN IS COMING UP THE FRONT STAIRS and VINNY Metcalf up the back ones. TYLER IS COMING TO GET YOU”. I slid my phone in the pocket. I think now, matt set me up for this. I opened the door and looked out. I didn’t know what to do. I sighed and heard them both coming. I dodged out and down the hall to a room. It was dark. I couldn’t see in it. I managed to find the bed in the room. I sat down on it and just waited. I didn’t know where Tyler was at all. I slid my phone out and texted Emily. “I’m in his sister’s room. Where is Tyler ?” A minute later she texted back and said” he got caught by Ryan. IT WAS A TOTAL SET UP. LEXI get out of there now. Please”. I texted her back and said “their coming I heard them. I’m staying here. Please get Kevin.”

Back down stairs Emily tried to get her brother. She got caught by Matt. She sighed and said? I need to see my brother matt”. He sighed and said “No Em. Sorry your brother isn’t available”. I sighed and waited. I heard a knock on the door. I panicked. I stayed still and didn’t talk at all.” Lexi, its Tyler. Open the door”. I got up and saw him but then I saw Tristan. I tried to close the door but Ryan pulled Tyler and then Tristan pushed into the room and Vinny followed him in as well. I backed up and into the bed. I got pushed down on to the bed. I didn’t know what was happening. I tried to scream but vinny’s hand was over my mouth.. I lifted my foot and kicked him right in the forbidden zone. He sighed and said “I have a cup, sweetie. It’s not going to work”. I sighed and bit his hand. He screamed and took his hand off my mouth and shook it a bit. He slapped me and said “You are one brave little girl”. Tristan looked around and smiled. He looked kind of weird looking. He was kind of ugly. It wasn’t like his looks but his personality that made him ugly. He was attractive but still a jerk. Vinny pulled out his wallet and grabbed something. It looked like a condom but I didn’t get a clear picture of it. It was too fast for me to see. Vinny sighed and said “Who first bro”. Tristan smiled and said “Me. You know ive wanted this pretty little thing since I saw her. So I get her first”. Vinny nodded and passed the thing. That’s when I knew it was a condom. I tried to scream but then they put tape over my mouth. I heard someone trying to get in. I didn’t know who. I wish it was Kevin or my dad or maybe my older brother, Cameron. I didn’t know what Tristan was going to do to me at this point.

Vinny looked at him and said “Bro you going to or you chickeng out man”. Tristan sighed and said “No man. She teased me and she deserves this. She gets what was coming to her.” I was confused now. I didn’t tease him. I was just being me. I didn’t know I teased people. He sighed and looked at me once more. He slipped his shirt off and then took his belt off. He then slid his pants down to just his boxers. I took notes of his blue boxers that seem to match his eyes perfectly. I sighed. He was too attractive that it was sickening. I looked at him and watched him carefully. He pushed me back on the bed more and then got on me. He took his boxers off and slid the thing on. It was over in 10 minutes. For guys that was a quickie. The big thing for girls was done for me. My plans, my everything. This wasn’t so good. He got off and took the thing off and got dressed. Vinny was sitting on the set waiting for his turn. Tristan kissed me and left the room to vinny and me. Vinny did the same thing as Tristan did but this was different. I didn’t feel the thing. I felt more like him more. And this is when I knew. This is when I was truly scared. I didn’t know what to do so I lay lifeless. It was longer. It was way longer. I could tell. I knew it was. It was about 1 30 now. I could tell Emily was worried about me. I could feel it. Then I didn’t feel vinny there. He was standing at the end of the bed. He smiled and said “Have fun. You were good. Your body is great”. He opened the door and Emily and Tyler ran in to the room. They turned on the light. I was under the sheets crying my eyes out by this time. Twice in a night. This was just not a good thing.

I sat up and looked to them and said “Tristan was nice. He wore one but…” I stopped in mid sentence. I didn’t know what to say. I was totally scared. I looked to Tyler and said” He didn’t use one.” Tyler shook his head and said” Lexi you have to go to the hospital. You have to report this. You really have to. I’ll bring you. I’ll make sure everything is okay and if you want I’ll call your parents or Cameron to come get you”. I looked at him and said “All I want is to take a shower”. He shook his head and said “No that will get rid of the evidence.” I nodded and said “the condom is on the floor, and I guess I’ll go”. Emily looked to me and said “I will go too. I don’t care what anyone says. I will go with you”. I nodded and said “okay. I’m still in the dress. They didn’t undress me so I don’t know how he said my body is rocking”. Tyler nodded and said “Okay sweetie let’s go”. He picked me up in his arms and Emily behind him. We started down the back stairs and out the back door. Everyone was still here so it was a safe way. He put me in the back of the car. Emily sat down in the front seat. He took his keys and went to the front and drove off.

The party was still going when we left and that was somewhere close to two in the morning. I was surprised. Emily looked to me and said” Don’t worry lexi everything will be okay”. Tyler was driving slowly but not to slow. The hospital was really that far from matt’s house. Maybe that’s why it was such a good place to live. I soon couldn’t see a thing. Everything was going black on me. My eyes were seeing fuzzys around and blue and a lot of other colors. Then suddenly I blacked out. I couldn’t hear a thing. I couldn’t feel a thing. Emily screamed” Alexis Alexis. Tyler , Hurry Hurry. She just blacked out.” I could feel the car go faster than before. Then it stopped and went to park mood. That was the last I really felt. I soon woke up in a bed. I didn’t know where I was. I looked around and saw my brother Cameron then Tyler and Emily and Kevin. I didn’t smile, just laid there. Cameron looked to me and smiled. He didn’t say a thing but I knew he wanted to say how you could. You knew mom and dad were out on vacation. I sighed and closed my eyes. Soon I was waken by a doctor and a nurse. The nurse smiled and said “Sweetie we have the evidence we need your clothes. You need to stay here for a while since you blacked out in the car”. I looked at her and said” I blacked out on the car ride”. I sounded so pathetic. I sounded drugged up and out of it. She smiled and said “Yeah, Did they give you anything at all”. I looked to her and said “No, All I had was a soda from matt”. She nodded and said “Matt what?” I could barely speak now. I spit out Connin and then closed my eyes. I was totally out of it.

Sunday is my birthday. I really can’t wait. I am getting my hair cut for the first time since my last birthday. Yes, a year since I last cut my hair. That was my only wish & want for my birthday this year, seeing as I am twenty. I bought my own lap top this year, my own ipod. I have really stepped up, and told myself I will get my own things, and if i want something, I get it. I am a firm believer in that. But, I got the suprise of my life today. My mother sent me a picture of a cute puppy today when I was at work, saying it was for her best friends husband who has cancer and is passing away soon, but i found out after work, that the puppy is a puppy out a litter of five, and one of them is going to be mine. I never have been so happy. I lost my first dog, a beagle, addison when I was thirteen. And over two years ago, I lost my best friend, my baby boy, Jinxes. I would love a little boy again, because I feel they are closer to thier owner for sure. I already have my girls - momma and baby girl, and no matter what I will always love those little kitties. But, I am so happy to finally be (maybe) getting a dog again, best birthday gift ever! I hope the application goes through, and we get accepted because on april 6th I will be a proud owner of a baby beagle mix <3333

I am waiting for god to send that one that will love me just as much as I know he does. I am waiting for my kind of angel. God I trust you but where is he? Give me a clue, please.

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But just by telling anyone they are beautiful it could make there day, you might even save a life. Just by saying that one thing. So what are you waiting for? 












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